istening to anyhwere by evenesence has opened my eyes to just how alone i am in this whole horrible, cruel, cold, uncaring world.....even tho i feel all the love ppl have for me, all the amount of care my friends feel towards me and my continued existance...i feel so empty....in a crowd full of ppl, surrounded, i feel alone...and hallow. other then the hallowness...i feel such pain as none i have ever felt. although the song is about love,running away with and being wholey with that person despite what others think, it makes the hole in my chest feel as if its being wripped open farther, it makes me feel the lack of the beat of my cold hert, it makes me hurt...so much. i feel like i could cry...yet the tears rebel and refuse to fall. my throat squezes shut, i cannot speak...my entire being burns to scream...to let out the pain that burns as acid in my vains...to cry and be heard by all and damn my pride and all it stands for...yet i cannot. the tears do not fall, the cry never pushes pass my burning lungs, the scream never escapes my tighly shut lips. and my pride is left broke merely by the thought of such an act. im so alone, yet no one sees how empty my heart is. they fall for my facade. my fake smile, the fake laughter, the fake happiness that never reaches my eyes nor my frozen heart. the one person who saw, who did save me from the darkness of the empty thing i call a heart, brought my head above the water, above the tide that tried with all its might to drawn me in tears, in death, left me as soon as he saved me. and now im drawning. and no one can see me fighting for what little life i have left in what i call my pathtic existance. they all would call my thoughts of death and the ending of the pain selfish...maybe they would be rite...but it never stopes the thoughts..the memories of the time i almost gave in to the darkness and eneded it all........why am i left so alone, so battered, so briused, so empty, so hurt?? why do i live tho my heart no longer gives me life??